| Location | Croydon |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Ectopic Pregnancy |
| Date of Birth | 10/05/2008 |
| Date of Death | 10/05/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,700 since 15/05/2008 |
| Creator |
i knew i was pregnant even before the test said i was on the 7th may 08
... i just felt it .. your daddy was so shocked but happy and was so excited ... xx
i even had a few names already for you !! .. infact we also bought a pram / buggy - it was as good
as new and was in our local charity shop ..
having two kids already i thought of the practical side of saving money !! ... felt weird pushin the
pram back from the shops - your brother wanted to push it and i imagined you in there my perfect
little baby....... working out the dates you were due on the 5th January 2009 !! ..
i started having a few pains but was reassured by my doctor they were just embedding pains and
everything was ok .. x it couldnt of been more further from the truth :-(
.on the 10th may 08 i woke up in serious agony and begged daddy to take me to hospital i felt each
bump on the way ! ..
the doctors were going to misdiagnose me but thankfully i had a internal scan and our my worst fear
was coming true .......
a ectopic pregnancy was confirmed i was in total shock and felt sick with fear ( my worst fear was
to go under for a op too ) .
that evening I was taken to surgery and operated on i lost my baby and my right tube was also
removed .
i still cant believe this has happened and still look down at my empty womb where my baby should
still be safe inside but it is empty and broken like my heart ♥
♥now in my eyes no matter how small it was too me he/she was still my baby.♥
♥i found out i was officially pregnant on my sons 10th birthday the 7th may ..
♥♥i feel so guilty and i cant stop thinking about my poor baby ..♥♥
♥so here i am making a site to remember my baby by ... no matter how young you was to me you were
my precious lil angel ..x...♥
♥mummy and daddy will NEVER forget you .. and your brother callum of course ! .. x... ♥
♥i believe there is a life after death ♥
i believe we will be reunited someday..x
untill that day comes my angel u will be forever in mummys thoughts ..
love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx♥
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
My Mum, she tells a lot of lies
She never did before
But from now until she dies
She'll tell a whole lot more
Ask My mum how she is
And because she can't explain
She will tell a little lie
Because she can't describe the pain
Ask My Mum how she is
She'll say "I'm Alright"
If that's the truth then tell me
Why does she cry each night?
Ask My Mum how she is
She seems to cope so well
She didn’t have a choice you see
Nor the strength to yell
Ask My Mum how she is
"I'm fine. I'm well, I'm coping"
For God's sake Mum, just tell the truth
Just say your heart is broken
She'll love me all her life
I loved her all mine
But if you ask her how she is
She'll lie and say she's fine
I am here in Heaven
I cannot hug from here
If she lies to you DON'T listen
Hug her and hold her near
On the day we meet again
We'll smile and I'll be bold
I'll say, " You're lucky to get in here Mum,
With all the lies you told!"
The day you left broke our hearts
and tears fell like rain
but knowing that you now have wings
helps to ease the pain
We know now when the snow falls
it is angel dust from you
and when we see a shooting star
our angel just passed through
The rain drops do not make us sad
for they are not tears
but sprinkles of love falling down
our angel again is near
The winter cold has even changed
Jack Frost no longer exists
it's now a visit from our angel
and he's left a special gift
You also visit in the night
your wings flutter with grace
we know now when we awaken
that an angel has kissed our face
When the days are warm and bright
and the sun shines from above
we feel the warmth wrap around us
you've given an angel hug
You are with us at all times
every day and night
you try to end the pain we have
and the tears that we still cry
Though heaven is your home now
and angel wings you wear
you stay close to those you love
until they join you there
Love Always ~~ mummy...x♥x
1 YEAR
cant believe its been a year since we lost you ... it still hurts like it was yesterday .. xxx
ive been dreading this day for a while to be honest as well .. it hurts alot ..
well lil one mummy and daddy will ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!!! .. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
and your BIG BROTHER CALLUM of course !!! ..x.x.x.x.x
love and hugs forever mummy x x x x x x x x x x x x x
do you know the number
please do you know the number for heaven up above i want to make a call to someone that i love,telephone directories enquiries,oh yes i have tried them all,i even asked the local priest because he talks to god you see i thought he,d have a direct line but he was no help to me,i tried the yellow pages but nothing seem to fit i just want to talk to you for just a little bit, love theresa xxx
WITH LOVE XXX
There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all the children go
It’s a place that’s full of laughter
Unlike this world here below
There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all our angels play
And the hearts there are so happy
Unlike our hearts feel today
There’s a garden up in Heaven
Where the roses blossom still
While below it feels like winter
All the angels feel no chill
In that garden up in Heaven
You will never find a tear
How we wish we could be with them
Or we still had them down here
There’s no crying in that playground
Just their happy faces there
There’s no pain and there’s no heartache
There’s no illness or despair
They’re too busy with their playing
They’re too happy making friends
It’s their parents wanting answers
And their broken hearts to mend
As they play in Heaven’s playground
All our little angels sing
They don’t question why they’re up there
They don’t ask for anything
All our children play together
In that playground in the sky.
♥ MISS YOU EVERY DAY. ♥
No words I write can ever say ♥
how much I miss you everyday. ♥
As time goes by, the loneliness grows ♥,
How I miss you, nobody knows. ♥
I think of you in silence, ♥
I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories, ♥
And a photo in a frame.
No one sees me weep. ♥
But the love I have for you, ♥
Is in my heart, and mine to keep. ♥
I have never stopped loving you
and I know I never will.
Deep inside my heart, ♥
You are with me still.
Heartaches, this world are many, ♥
But mine is worse than any. ♥
My heart still aches, as I whisper low, ♥
"I need you... and miss you so. ♥"
The things we feel so deeply ♥
are often the hardest things to say. ♥
But I just can't keep quiet anymore, ♥
So I'll tell you any ways. ♥
There is a place within my heart ♥
that no one else can fill. ♥
I love you and I always will! ♥ ♥
X
mummy misses you so much !!
I never got to see your face
Or even give you a name
But in my heart, you hold a special place
And for that, I would never be the same
I’ll never hear you laugh or cry
Or hold you in my arms tenderly
I’ll never know the color of your eyes
But I will still love you endlessly
I never got to hold your hand
I never got to sing you a lullaby
I will never come to understand
Why murderers run free and innocent souls die
I’ll always have my suspicions
Why God took you from me
All these unanswered questions
That would burn inside of me
Forever saddened upon this Earth
Crying for you, my unborn child
Never blessed by your birth.
But I’ll be here, unable to smile
You are my shining light in heaven
For one of God’s angels to love
Until I get my wings to descend
She’ll take care of you, for me, in Heaven above
You’ll be my Guiding Light to Heaven’s Gate
Where I’ll get to see your Angelic Smile
And even if I never got to see your face
I’ll know in an instant that you are my unborn child!
my sister your auntie had her scan today .. she is having another little girl .. her baby is due in september .. it hurts knowing she has a baby on the way .. cos i miss you !! :-(
Getting closer and closer to a year since we lost you lil one .. xx
does not make things easier as people say !! ..
i still remember it clearly the day u slipped away .. it will never be the same !! ..
i didnt get around to kiss you .. i didnt get to hug you or tell u how much mummy loves you !! ..x.
i hope you can hear me when i think of you and send my love to you !! .x.x. forever love
silly really coming on here to type away to a website , some people will think im bonkers and should get a life .. this is my life - part of my life
i feel so sad lately ..
i understand why you didnt want to be with me .. cos im a bad mummy and i would of let you down like your 2 brothers - thats me a failiure
alot of people would say anyway .. me included ..
when i met your daddy my life was a mess a bad mess but your daddy showed me something noone else ever did and that was LOVE ..
your daddy would of been a fantastic daddy to you lil one .. he really would .. x
i would of treasured the smile of pride on his face , it would of made me smile .. x
i wish the hospital gave me you so i could of given you a porper bye bye .x.x well your body anyway .. i know your not really there anymore .. but still i would of put you with your uncle and your nanny .x. least i could visit there but i have nothing
just a few scars of my belly
i would of tried to be the best mummy ever with you and your big brother callum would be been a fantastic brother to grow up with .. x
i love you lil one .. DONT U EVER FORGET THAT !! .X.X
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